he's amazing..

He moved in about a month ago into the men's residence. He's gorgeous. A little taller than I am, and has a tiny lisp when he speaks. 

We are forbidden to have relationships with the men. Even having cordial conversations for any length of time can cause worry with the staff. I am friends with one of the guys who has been here as long as I have. We sometimes chat outside when we run into eachother. I expect at some point to be called to the office and talked to about it. The new guy sometimes sees us talking and I get a curious vibe off of him. Like 'do you like this guy?' But it isn't like that at all. We're just friends. He's a painter and I want to put his stuff on clothes. So we talk about that. Plus he's moving out soon, so we talk about the places he checks out. 

The new guy could be husband material. It would be ironic that he could be mine and I could be his but we aren't allowed to date or spend time together. If we do we can be kicked out. In a way that could be seen as intoxicating. The danger of it. But I am too old for that shit. 

I can tell he likes me too by the way he talks to me. Even when we're in bible class he tries to engage me in debate or conversation about the reading.  When I see him it takes my breath away. 

Definitely the type I could fall for.