Holding..

It rained a few nights ago. It was unexpected, but the rub is the room where I sleep leaks at the window. So not only does the curtain get wet, but my dresser and anything on it, water has warped the wall under the window. If it rains a long time water will seep all the way into the corner of the room and get everything I have stacked there wet. Not to mention this causes things to mold. Mold causes sinus infections. I can't wait to leave this place.

My friend who lived here couldn't take anymore and left to live with a friend from school. Another friend was tired of trying to find work and went back to her old job in Arizona. I got a tiny raise at work. So I am not quite making minimum wage, but I don't care. I love my job. I can catch up on all those albums I've been meaning to sample while I am working. By no means is my life in order or perfect. But I love my life right now.

Looking forward to having my own apartment again. I have found many options in Hollywood. I don't want to leave Hollywood. I really feel good there. Downtown is okay as long as it's Korea town or little Toyko, or arts district. 

I have to start creating things again. I have a studio at my disposal, so I want to get some creative stuff happening. I want to change my style a bit. I feel like when I open my closet it could be circus stuff because of all the prints and colors. I want to have some simple pieces to supplement with. Some things I made, just don't appeal to me anymore. I feel stupid wearing them. Like a straight clown. I need blouses that are flattering. Skirts that are feminine, and nice shoes. I hate all my shoes. Cheap $10 shoes need to be thrown away and replaced with real stuff. Nice quality stuff. 

I have a big crush on my movie meetup partner. But I have a feeling that would never go anywhere, so I will keep it a crush. 

I'm really tired by the time I make the hour and a half bus ride home. I have zero energy for anything. I would like that to change.