The end

It rained again. Really rained like all day. It was like being back in Seattle. The day before it was 85 and sunny. Now we are in the low 60's and rainy. Supposed to be like this 3 days. Winter. Blek.

The job has pretty much run it's course. I had to make up a fake client that I needed to buy fabric for in a timely manner to get paid two weeks ago. There was no client, but I told the lady I work for/with that it would take 16 hours to complete the project. I could do it in a day. Needless to say we were going into Thanksgiving week. She calls me everyday with no schedule. The last work related thing she said was 'I haven't had time to go take the measurements of the jacket. I guess they are going to lose that sale.' I was like wow! Really? If she was working for ME and that was part of her job description and she pulled that shit, she would be fired. The day after Thanksgiving my student loan payment was due. The payment that if I didn't make it I would be sent to collections. THAT payment. I told her Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday very CLEARLY that I needed my money so I would not be sent to collections. IT IS VERY IMPORTANT I GET PAID!!!

Friday comes. I call her several times and she doesn't answer. About 4 I get a hold of her. She is still stuttering about where my money is. She has to call B and ask her for the money. I didn't hear from her the rest of the day. I call the school and they are closed for the holiday. I pray that that gives me grace. But I get the 'payment failed' e mail. I am ANGRY! Not only has she bled me of my hours all week. But she didn't pay me so now I am in collections with my student loan! I was LIVID! I was ready to find her and shake her like a rag doll.

Saturday comes and she finally calls me, still with no plans to work. Then she has the balls to say to me 'B is starting to get the feeling you aren't into this project.' I fucking LOST IT! I have never spoken to, e mailed or met B face to face. She herself has not asked me anything. How would she know my level of commitment. Unless you are telling her some bullshit lie like 'I was busy all week with a sewing project, so I couldn't work.' Which I completely see you doing to hide the fact that you yourself are too busy or unmotivated whichever to get anything done. She gets this super snotty holier than thou tone with you that makes you want to slap the shit out of her. I was seeing red. She plays games, that cost people. I told her that I really question B's ability to choose people that are good for her business if she put you in charge, because you are going to run her business into the ground. She was offended I said this. She tried to tell me that I told her I was busy all week. I told you the project was 16 hours. How is 16 hours Sunday to Wednesday? Can you not count? I could have worked every day this week. I noticed that you aren't calling about working today either. You bled me of my income intentionally. I think B isn't aware she's paying me. I think you have run out of money so you are playing these games with me now. GET ME MY MONEY OR I QUIT! S

She tells me she will call me back and get my account number so she can put the money in my account.  An hour later she calls me back and doesn't ask me for my account number she's fussing about half the items in e bay not automatically relisting. I was like 'are you really asking me about work right now and I haven't been paid? ARE YOU REALLY DOING THIS?' Every fiber of my being wanted to leave it as it was until I got paid as a message not to fuck with me. Another part of me wanted to take the whole site down as a message not to fuck with me. Against my better judgement I went and relisted them, because I knew that would be used as and excuse not to pay me. 

So I spent all of Sunday trying not to be angry, and hanging on to getting paid. I have another opportunity in my lap. I was planning to spend Sunday studying the new job. I couldn't focus. I needed a day to wallow. It was cold and rainy, I just wanted a day to be upset. I opened the info, and did a few things but I have to get started to I can move along. I must take control. Earn money so I can open a binary account and make the money to move out of here and get a car. The pressure is there because my bus pass expires the end of the year. So wouldn't be silky smooth to just have a car and not even sweat a bus pass anymore? YES! 

My goal was that for Christmas I would be in my own place. I set that goal back in March, it's now December 1st. So the proverbial clock is ticking to reach said goal. 

I have adopted the abandon BMX bike in the back yard to be mine. I want to strip the paint and repaint it. I put air in the tires. It's good to ride. I want to use it to do short trips down and around the block. But I have to get a lock for it. I could if I GOT PAID!