....the grey area

I did all the running around required by the aid office. The quicker I get all the forms done the quicker I get my cash. The quicker I have cash coming in the more easily it will be to move if my voucher comes up. The office is right off skid row, so in addition to them doing fung shwei to the place, they also have a concierge that greets you and asks you what you are there for. They figured out people from skid row were coming there just to hang out or sleep all day. Which was making the place impossibly crowded and smelly. So they have weeded out the clingers on. Then when I walked in the place smelled like incense. Really great incense. Someone had lit it in the ladies room. How thoughtful of them. 

I later had a derm appointment in little Tokyo. I showed the doctor the places that wouldn't heal. He said he could burn them off. Which sounded painful. He took out this can that blasted what felt like dry ice to the areas. They burned for a few hours, then started growing these scabs. He said they would and in about 10 days they would be gone. The one on my leg looks hideous tho. A mound of flesh standing up. I am worried. My chin seems to be doing better.

I thought about where I would look for an apartment. I saw one for rent for $850 with a $500 deposit near Vine street. But that was a studio. With the cash from the job I could get a one bedroom. My friend W wants to move here. A two bedroom would be ideal, but if he isn't helping pay for it, the sofa will have to do. The thing is, look how long it's taken me to get a place. I couldn't handle three years on my sofa. If I find a place I like I wouldn't want to move just to have a roomate either. I don't think he will have as hard a time finding something as I did. He won't be in school when he gets here for two years like I was.  I want to be among the living again. A grown up who can come and go as she pleases. Have people over whenever she wants, clean when she wants, eat in the middle of the night if she wants.